i’m a lover?

You know when, sometimes you meet someone so beautiful, and then you actually talk to them and five minutes later, they’re as dull as a brick? Then there’s other people, and you meet them and you think, ‘Not bad; they’re okay.’ And then you get to know them, and their face sort of becomes them, like their personality is written all over it. And they just turn into something so beautiful. Rory’s the most beautiful man I’ve ever met.  - Amelia Pond

 

This is stupid and lame and typical but i feel like i should get it out of the way by hiding it in it’s own page. I used to believe in fairy tales and all sorts of romantic things because that’s what i grew up to know. I liked to dress up as a princess and have ‘princes’ that loved me, i’d watch movies and read books that set my standards for what ‘love’ and ‘relationships’ should and needed to be about. And it’s those exact things that dragged me down the drain when i realized that none of that can possibly be achieved by one person. Not a single person on the planet can fit into the unrealistic expectations that girls grow up and develop in their wandering minds. It took me a while to grasp the simple concept that guys are just like girls; they have emotions, they have feelings, and they have issues of their own. I learned that if you go into a relationship thinking only of the things you want, you just end up miserable and alone. I’ve changed my views on this numerous times as my logic matured and i finally got to understand things as they are. I can pick people out who are aesthetically pleasing to me, but you ask me what my ‘type’ is? I’m not going to say i like ‘guys with ___eyes, ____ hair and ____ body’ , I’ll tell you i fancy a guy who believes in something, who has dreams and will talk about things he wants to do even if they’re stupid or silly, who understands the difference between wanting to be alone and needing it and who i can truthfully say i feel at home with. I’ve learned that if you limit yourself to silly categories like specific hair colour or personality type, it’s nearly impossible to find the exact person you’re describing. It’s better to try things you haven’t and to give people chances.