where

update update update huh?

my teapot will most likely be in an art show and i am happy so happy

i’ve found a baby mouse and named him cheezit and i love him so much

 

 

valentines day nathan gave me a beautiful bracelet fit for a mermaid

he told me everything would never change and i wondered what he meant

and now i am crying because i’ve found the answer in the pit of my stomach

i feel so !!!!!!!!!!!!! and am struggling so much to find the answer

to the question

“how”

 

 

i submitted a poem to my schools literary mag and i am dying

 

 

i need ________.

sometimes

i wear the shirt you gave me to bed,

and i think about the day you gave it to me.

laying on my bed,

casually taking it off and tossing it at me;

‘here, you can have it’

 

the day when you looked at my eyes,

compared my lashes to delicate spider legs.

embraced me,

and rested your head on my shoulder.

you breathed hot on my neck,

because you knew i liked that.

 

i wanted to feel something

and i guess it was a little too much for me

so i stopped feeling

and a lot of other things

it changed me

you

us

 

 

aww remember when everyone and their brother read my blog and then posted all over face book about it?

 

good times :o)

don’t read old things or look at old things or think about old things because 99 per cent of the time you will end up sad

as is the case with me! at the moment! hopefully it will go away! mhm!

 

uh

what

can

i

say

???

 

i think i’m going to be no on here as much

i am forgetting to come here and talk

i am distracted by other things s s s s  s

i dunno i just am not feeling it lately

‘it’

whatever that might be

it’s missing for now

oh well

uh

enter button hello

oh

finals are done with that’s somthing

yeah

 

love you but i am sad right now hm

 

oh oops

sorry i forgot about you bloggie. too many things going on and not enough time

 

my sister came home last tuesday and i spent most of the time if not all of it with her

dropped her at college yesterday

that’s a good summary of things

 

i have finals this week

i’m finishing packets as i type

wah

 

bye

the 3rd

i woke up and i was still having a high. i didn’t know where i was and it was all so weird. then i remembered that i needed to shower and go to school. so up i went.

the general day was nice. i made some coffee to keep myself awake.

it was one of those days where i felt like i looked very nice. i wore a nice mustard (?) sweater and had pink tights that my friend jasmin gave me. i decorated them with hot glue and little stars and things. i wore my new shoes as well and everything like them!

i gave ms lange the pearl jam photo book, she loved it so much! i’m so happy about it! she gave me hugs and told me i’m the best.

 

i’m sitting now watching sex and the city with some tea and a biscotti

i am class

 

 

what can i say

the past 24 hours i dont even know what happened

nye was insane and great and aww

spent the night driving around trying to get some weed. yeah whatever. we got some and went back to my friend house to smoke it. i had a lot of wine and very bad beer. i smoked more than i should have and the result was a very loopy wah me. a boy came over and he was out of his pants and were on omegle talking to people.

we took smoking breaks. we weoke up this morning and took a few hits and our friend tony took us to taco bell. i didn’t have any food today because i couldnt handle it. i was out of it all day and i talked to my friends ex boy friend on the phone and she got mad and told my other friend’s boyfriend that she was cheating on him. and i am reminded once again about the drama most of other high school girls face and i just could not care less.

the cool thing is that my friend’s step dad rolled me a blunt because he thought i was cool so that’s good

tony is a cool guy and we both have leather jackets and he liked my new shoes

 

oh yeah i got my new shoes and my melodica withiin the last three days

cool

i don tknow i f this is a hangover i am experiencing or just a bad headache

hm

well anyway blog, happy new yea thanks for being there for me bud

cheers to stuff!

broder daniel kinda day!

today (the 29th) was such a good day!

i woke up and my shoulder was in much pain so i took a warm shower -with my new shower wash!!- and i felt so much better. hot showers always make me feel better.

i went to some stores and i bought: a thin curling iron ($3~), and pop up case with binoculars ($2!!!!), a vemon plushie, some earrings, etcs. i also went to the craft store to get some things to make my good friend sally a present because i am seeing her tomorrow and i am very happy about that!!

 

i also talked to my other friend about new years and what we’re doing because we forgot to the other day haha. and within 45 minutes we got it together so i will get a call from her tomorrow sealing the deal. um yes i looking forward to that!

 

i’ve been listening to broder daniel since i got home and cleaning. this is a good day yes.

i like it.

i like you.

 

 

these are a picture i took tonight and a song that i like to listen to some times!